And I forgot about this blog. Forgot about my goal to write just a few lines a day. And the last week my mind has been so full of ideas, and I was wishing I had somewhere easy I could throw them so I wouldn't forget I had them, and then I remembered here. So here I am.
Living alone in a foreign land with only my husband and daughter
14 hours ahead and living a different day than everyone else I know
3 months out from seeing my family with 3 more months to go
traveling every chance I can to keep busy and keep the missing away
second class citizens on base without access to health care
OTC meds are even hard to find at the commissary
unable to communicate well with the locals because the language barrier is strong
understanding what immigrants face and building compassion for them every day
knowing what it feels like to be illiterate and the struggles it causes in everything
missing my babies so much it aches
adventuring and planning and traveling
Today we missed a baby shower for grand baby number 3
my daughter called and I saw all their faces
smiling, happy, together
And I loved to see them and it filled my heart with light and joy and filled my eyes with tears
And I am here with the same conflict of the last 33 years-
I cannot have everything I want
the people I love will never all live near each other
the children I love will never leave East Texas
I will never be able to live in one place with all the people I love in a place that I love
and moving here has taught me, finally and forever
that my kids are still my heart and I will choose to live with them
no matter who else I will miss
and no matter what hell they choose to stay in
I will be there
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